Tortilla

ive been talking to sahar in chat and eran on the phone almost every day for the last few months because i have noone else to talk with.

but lately they have been awful. eran volunteers always get angry at me or drop the call within 5 minutes or other things. im now waiting for 4 hours trying to talk with eran, waiting as im writing this.
i dont want to talk to them anymore... they just make me feel worse.
is there anywhere else? im not an immigrant.
i speak hebrew and english.
ive tried to make friends here or someone to talk with here, d

was told to post here again.
posted here before, no response.

30 years old male stuck living with family that hate me and i hate them. cant hold a job, no income, no desire to live. tried to end it. planning sometime in the future.

called social workers, the thing they offered was 3 therapist talks via phone call, and a psychatrist meeting once.

talked with them over 10 times to set a meeting with a therapist via a phone call.
they never called.
no room for a psychatrist appointment. and even then im against pills.

was told to go here an

i was recommended to write in this forum from one of the volunteers in the live chat.

im lonely with no friends to try talk to.
30 years old, cant hold a job, no income or money.
i play video games i dont like to pass time.

can read hebrew but cant really write in it.
have discord to talk with people but noone to really talk with. nothing is remotely interesting or fun.

i dont know what to expect from this, sorry if im using it incorrectly.